miss easy life
Tuesday, June 20th, 2006The heat has finally hit New York. and although I spend the whole winter despising living in such a cold city, and telling myself i do it because new york summers are so awesome, … heat makes me miss home.
I hate being an adult. sometimes I wish i could be more like other people my age, who have no worries. i’m not talkign about the spoiled brats who have no worries because mommy and daddy take care of them, but like other setists who are ou there doing the grind, trying desperately to make it,… yet dont feel the pain. dont get hurt every day they dont get to act. they seem so unconcerned. like, oh well, back to waiting tables. let me just wait tables this week and next week i’ll try to do something. dont they hurt? I feel so dissappointed everyday that i dont get to do something. and when in reality it is no ones fault, luck of the draw, i’m so inlcined to blame myself. I dont understand that either. how I cant impress myself. do other people feel proud of themselves?
I miss summerrs in Louisiana because it meant i had just finished school, accomplished another great year of studyign and impressing, and now I could reward myself. but adults dont get that.
especially if the adult is a broke ass bitch who cant by a vacation.
stay in school. like roger. cuz it really is the easy life.
